My body is far from perfect, and I am okay with it. It's freeing to be working out because I love my body and I want to get stronger rather than working out because I hate my body and still want to lose 10lbs.

I haven't gotten on the scale in weeks, but I know I am gaining weight with Body Beast. My stomach is super jiggly. My abs are gone. That's what happens when you're eating 9 servings of carbs! But I am bulking up, and it feels effing amazing. I'm not afraid of what the scale says because I know it means nothing. I'm not even afraid of my jiggly belly because I know it's temporary. This is a 90 day transformation program with 3 different stages!!! I am trusting the process and loving the results I see in my arms and legs.

I've always had tiny, lanky arms. Even at my heaviest weight, my arms looked super skinny. It's just how my body is. And now, just 2.5 weeks into the program, my arms are beasty! I've never seen muscle like this on me!

How did I get this way? How did my mind flip from wanting to be skinny to wanting to be healthy, happy, and physically and mentally strong?

I couldn't have done this without the amazing women in my life. The women that show me what they're working on. The women that show me how they are making healthy and happy changes in their lives. I am so thankful for these accountability groups. They've helped me get over wanting the perfect body. They've helped me learn to accept myself as is, but I can still work on bettering myself. A year ago, that was a really hard concept for me to understand.

I felt like there was this message in the mainstream media that women are obsessed with being skinny and only workout to get skinny.

But that's not me. That's not everyone. 

I'm not content with staying the same. I have a different mindset about change.

I am neutral about my body's imperfections, and I love working out to make it stronger. I love seeing muscle. I love challenging my mind with these workouts. I love the energy I feel from working out. The sense of accomplishment. Knowing that I can do hard things.

It's so ridiculous that I am feeling all this girl power while doing such a masculine program! I love it.

 

Today was LEG DAY. We woke up late again, so Paul wasn't able to lift with me in the morning. BETTER TOMORROW. He still worked out at lunch. I am so proud of him.

This program is very masculine, and I am proud of myself for keeping up. I had to press pause a few times, and I had to use 5lb weights on the Bulgarian split squats. BUT I AM COMPLETING THE WORKOUTS. I am getting stronger. I am getting out of this program what I am putting in.

 

Day 24 of 365. Still going strong. Baby steps to 2018. 💪🏽💪🏽💪🏽💪🏽

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