Have you ever wanted to do something big and announced that goal so that people knew and maybe would hold you accountable???
Or maybe you have done that in the past and then got burned... you didn't actually work on the goal, and then you got embarrassed because you failed.
Ok, so I have been in both those spots.
I have announced big things: RUNNING 1 MILE FOR 100 DAYS STRAIGHT. And I accomplished that goal.
That goal scare the crap out of me. It was something I had never done before! But I announced it, and I went for it. I had a strong WHY.
I also announced how I wanted to get to 1000 miles by December 31, 2016, and guess what- that didn't happen. Guess what!? A few people reached out to me to see if I hit that goal, and when I was honest and said I didn't, they didn't hate on me or think less of me or not want to be my friend or not think highly of me. They understood. Life happened.
Then I announced that I wanted to hit 1000 miles by my Run With Jaclyn day, and guess what!? I left things to the last minute and on that day, I had to run 6 miles. I got it done. I felt kind blah about leaving it to the last minute, but I got it done.
Sooooo I have been toying with this new goal... a time goal for my marathon. Last year, my goal was to do 1 hour better than my previous marathon, and I did about 30 minutes better. It was an improvement, but I didn't hit my goal.
I didn't set a specific time goal this year because life just kinda happened and I didn't even sit down to do it. But after thinking about the past year and what my running times are like right now, I know I am not giving it my all.
Here's where I'm at: I run anywhere from 10-12 minute miles. My first couple miles suck sooooo much. My feet hurt. My calves are cramping. My quads hurt. But magically, my last mile is always my best and I always feel like I can go out there and run a few more miles if need be.
I feel like I am not giving it my all. I feel like I think I am doing my best, but I think there is a lot more strength and a lot more speed hidden that I haven't uncovered.
Since completing the Chicago marathon in October, I didn't just lay around. I kept working. I completed 3 LOOOOONG and hard Beachbody programs. I did Core de Force which is a 30 day Mixed Martial Arts program.
Yeah, I moved it. I went waaaaaaay out of my comfort zone. I tried something I knew I was HORRIBLE AT. Anything with coordination... I'm soooo bad at. And I got the BEST results I have ever gotten from a Beachbody program. This is while I was eating Thanksgiving and Christmas foods. Like WHOA.
Then in January, I did Body Beast which is a 90 day heavy weight lifting program. I wanted Paul to start working out more, so I decided I would do a program that appealed to him. WHOA. Way out of my comfort zone. I had done Hammer and Chisel with the trainer Sagi before, and I was honestly a little afraid of him! This program proved to me that I was physically and mentally stronger than I ever thought.
I didn't know how to lift weights before this program and I also didn't know how to hear a very masculine man talk about weights and not get sad. This program TAUGHT me to lift weights. This program taught me to mentally and emotionally strong. And guys, those arms!! I was so freaking strong by the end of this program.
AND THEN INSANITY. Insanity is this illusive Beach Body program that I have tried so many times and have given up by the second week. It's 60 days of effing insane cardio. I pushed my body. My body is stronger than ever. My mental game is stronger than ever. And my pants... they're smaller than ever!
(ps. I had plenty of rest days. Don't worry! I took care of myself during this time too!)
My body did all of those programs all winter, so when I started running again a few weeks ago, I thought it would be an easy transition. My legs are strong AF. My cardio game is strong... but my mile times aren't where I expected them to be right now.
I am holding myself back without a defined goal.
Right now, I just go out there and run and don't have a goal for my times. In the past, I was just learning to run so getting out there and completing a mile was an accomplishment. I know I can run a mile now. I know I can run 13 miles. I know I can complete 26.2. I need a new goal. "Completing" is not a goal that pushes me anymore, because I know I have already done it.
In the past, I equated having a number as being obsessive, and I wanted nothing to do with that. I struggled so much with the number on the scale or number of calories to eat, and I didn't want to fall into those number rabbit holes again.
But I'm in a different place now. I have a great relationship with food and exercise. And I love running.
And I DO want to get faster. And the only way to get faster is to push myself to have a faster time...a smaller number. I know I am holding out on myself. When I go for a run, I conserve energy AS IF I WERE RUNNING 26.2 MILES EVERY TIME I RUN. My time for a 5k race is the same as my time for the first 5k in a marathon. If I can run 26.2 miles, my 5k can be a faster time.
When we play small, we get small results. When we pick goals that scare the crap out of us, when we go BIG, we achieve HUGE things we never thought possible for us. We are MOTIVATED to do something huge in life.
Sooo what does all of this mean???
I am setting a goal, and I am going for it. I am going to run a marathon in 4 hours and 22 minutes. That comes out to 10:00 miles. I am going to train and run and get there. I can run a single mile in under 8 minutes. I can push my body to run faster. I can get over the humps. I can get over the hard parts. I can do this without being mean to myself. I can do this without giving up. I can do this with plenty of times that I mess up, but you know what? I can do this with plenty of times that I succeed and wow myself. I think sometimes I get afraid of success and just feel comfortable being average because when you're average, there is no fear of messing up.
I am going to run a marathon in 4 hours and 22 minutes.
I picked this time because I KNOW I can run a 10 minute mile. I know I can run a 7:51 minute mile. So yes, I can run a 10 minute mile. And I believe I can run 10 minute miles over and over again. And that's what I am going to practice and write about in my journal and visualize before I go out for runs.
This scares the crap out of me.
I am not a fast runner.
And that's the thing. I have to stop saying that about myself.
I am going to get better. And I am going to be fast. Fast for me. I don't need to compare myself to anyone else but me.
I completed my first marathon in 6 hours and 19 minutes. YIKES. That's a long time to be on my feet.
My goal for my second marathon was to do it 60 minutes faster. I completed my second marathon in 5 hours and 49 minutes. So I was halfway there! I did exactly 30 minutes faster!
So this goal of 4 hours and 22 minutes is pretty scary. It's almost 2 hours shorter than my first marathon. It's 1.5 hours shorter than last year's marathon.
My manager at my last job told me that if something scares me, it means you should do it.
I am going to run 26.2 miles at a 10 minute pace.
I'm really excited for this!! Next blog post will be ALL about how I am planning for this goal. Saying a goal out loud and then waiting for the deadline is bullshit. Ya gotta put in the work and achieve that goal. I'll explain EVERYTHING I am doing in my next post.
Have you ever set a goal and then forgotten about it 2 seconds later? Need help setting a goal and actually WORKING towards it? I am hosting a FREE workshop tonight at 8pm. Message me at firstname.lastname@example.org if you'd like to attend or receive the recording.